CHANGE

Last week I called a good friend of mine. I told her that the troubles I was having with my husband had dissipated in the days since she and I had last spoken. I told her that he and I had shared a good few days of normalcy, laughter, intimacy. I told her that I should be thankful that I even have one good day, because some married couples have none. She agreed with me. Said we belong together. That we make a good couple.

Today that all changed. Today I screamed, “What am I doing here?! Why am I doing this?! How did I get here?!” How many good days will it take to erase this very, very,very bad one? When did I become so complacent to my own happiness? How will this change? Will it change? Will a change be the right thing? Today… I am NOT an optimist!